distractions

it does not matter

it does not matter what I have left to say.
it does not matter because at the end of the day I will be remembered as what’s not to happen again.
I will be used as the example of
What will not be tolerated.
What was too much.
What was not enough.
What was not appreciated.

I won’t be remembered as the one who was there to put out the fires.
To pick up the pieces.
To finish what was left.
To provide the knowledge of what’s to come.
To guide and help those who actually tried and wanted it.
To support the most random ideas in anyway I could.
To create an environment where they felt at home.
To learn anything I could just to help.

Just to be of service,
Just to be of use.
Just to be helpful.

it does not matter how much love I have given.
or how often it hurts.
it was never enough.

i will never be enough.